letting go

ever felt like u wanted sth so badly but u just cant have it? and the feeling bottles up within you and starts eating your heart and your soul. everytime u feel that way, the feeling accumulates within that small room.. stuffed til the point of explosion, and continuously eats you up. til you're left with nothing. nothing at all. when the people you care about turn their backs on you. when the people you trusted undermined your efforts. when the people you loved doesnt seem to care at all. the whole world seems to be engulfed in dark clouds. no cars on the road. no people on the streets. no rustle of the leaves. n you're all by yourself. alone.

let me learn to let go.

In love with falling in love

Attached, but feel as if you're single?
Attached, but better off single?
Attached, but he's never there?
Attached, but lonely as can be?

Miss wondering if he's interested in you?
Miss the racing heartbeat when you meet?
Miss having someone who's always there?
Miss the feeling of falling in love?

So many questions
Just one simple answer
Yes

Do you love him?
Or do you love the feeling of falling in love?
I thought i was sure
I know im sure

Yet...

When he chose other things over me
Somehow, a part of my heart died
When he could stay up for them but not me
Another part of my heart died
When im no longer as important
Yet another part of my heart died

How many more parts do i have left?
How much longer can i tolerate?
How do i still want this?
How will this end?

I have no answers.